It’s been a little quiet around here hasn’t it? December was a really bad month for me. Not for any particular reason, but a bunch of little things piled up and I basically hunkered down to survival mode. And before I knew it, the month (and the year) was over.
One of the things that was supposed to happen in December was the BCS Half Marathon. I was given the opportunity to run it as a BibRave Pro and I was so excited to be going back. I had run the full before I was pregnant and I very Buch enjoyed the course as well as the energy of the race. Plus the pizza and beer after certainly didn’t hurt! Oh and the finishers jacket. And giant medal. So basically it is an awesome race….that I wasn’t able to run this year.
It was supposed to be my comeback half marathon. My first race back after having a baby. When I was pregnant I had convinced myself I was going to run an ultra within a year of having a baby. Obviously that didn’t happen and I was really thrilled to be attempting a half. I had talked it up, booked a hotel, picked out my outfit. Then I got food poisoning or a stomach bug the Thursday before the race. Friday I had to call in sick to work. Saturday I went to work but I was shaky all day and wasn’t sure I was going to be able to drive myself home at one point. So a half marathon on Sunday was out of the question.
I tried to tell myself I was glad that I wasn’t out running in the cold, but honestly I was derailed. I had been looking forward to this for so long and I had put a lot of work into getting ready. My training wasn’t the best and it was going to be a struggle to do the race, but then I had the opportunity to even try ripped away by something entirely out of my control.
This is probably something that would not have been such a big deal if it wasn’t a race I had built up so much in my head. My postpartum body is so different from what it was before pregnancy and I was really looking forward to proving to myself that I was still capable of this type of running.
Not being able to run the BCS Half Marathon was probably a major contributing factor in the funk that I am, admittedly, still trying to claw my way out of. I needed a win and it turned into a big fat loss.
A month later I am still disappointed, but I am getting back on my feet. I am kicking off my attempt at the Lululemon Strava Challenge today and I am looking for a new half to be my comeback half. It’s turning into a longer road than anticipated. But that’s just more room to run right?
This blog and my social media will be getting more attention this year too. I wish I could say I have big things in the works…but at the moment I am just taking small steps to get back in the driver’s seat of life rather than hanging on for dear life and trying to make it through!