Hi there! I just got back from a walk and had to share some thoughts. Since Oliver spent the whole time sleeping I had a little time to really process some things that I had been kicking around in my head for a while!
The postpartum world is not easy to navigate friends. All of a sudden your body has gone through a really drastic change (following 9 months of other drastic changes to boot) and you are responsible for another human being that depends on you 100%. Add in the fact that your hormones are all over the place and the the part where the little human isn’t going to let you sleep for any length of time and it’s no wonder new moms can be a little bit of a hot mess!
With all these things piled up it’s easy to wish for easier days to get here. Every day I find myself wishing for some milestone to get here faster:
I wish I could go for a run.
I wish he was old enough to ride in the stroller while I run.
I wish he would sleep through the night.
I wish he would sleep. Period.
I wish my body looked like it used to.
I wish my pre-pregnancy pants would fit.
I wish I wish I wish….
Then I realize that I don’t want time to go any faster than it already is. Sure it sometimes takes a while to get there and sometimes it’s the middle of the night and Oliver and I are both crying and I don’t think either of us are entirely sure why. Sometimes I convince myself that I really do want him to grow up faster so I can do all the thins it feels like I am missing out on. But eventually I always change my mind. I always realize that this moment that we are in, this life stage we are living and sometimes struggling through, is a once in a lifetime experience. You can’t get it back and it already goes so fast.
So I am writing this post as a reminder to myself and all the other new moms/dads/aunts/uncles/etc. that every stage of life is special. We need to stop wishing it away for something we think will be better. Shoot, I imagine if you aren’t a parent you aren’t still reading at this point, but really I think everyone can use this reminder from time to time. How many times have we wished to get on to the next thing then missed the “good old days?”
Today, loving the stage of life I am in meant pouring a cup of coffee and taking Oliver out for a stroller ride.
We walked 1.65 miles and I will admit I got distracted. I wanted to run just a few steps to remember how it feels. I convinced myself that my body felt really good and could handle it. Luckily I didn’t try it because now I am sitting on the couch tired and a little sore from just the walking. And I am ok with that, at least most of the time. I am not going to lie and say all it takes is one pep talk with myself to just love every moment of life exactly as it is, but I will say I am making a conscious effort to appreciate each moment as it is and not waste that time wishing for something else.
So here is my question for you: What do you find yourself wishing for and how do you remind yourself to appreciate the present?
Hope you have a fantastic Thursday!